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On Wednesday I got home from an extra harrowing day at work and I just wanted to take a bath so I could turn into a somewhat cordial person. Hello bathtub, my old friend. Then the baby girl wanted to get in with me, and how could I turn her away? Then as soon as she got in she decided to poop, which ruined any relaxing effects the bath was supposed to have. I tried to keep it together (i.e., summon David in a somewhat controlled fashion) and just then Jude busted in with the baby�s nasal aspirator, the snot sucking thing for baby noses � it�s his favorite bath toy. I was like "Ah, get out of here" but he started sucking up the unspeakably filthy bath water and squirting poop shards everywhere. It was the worst. David wrested the baby away while I disinfected the tub and I was so discombobulated I ignored my texts and thusly Carrie missed the much-anticipated watching of Project Runway with Gay Shane. And then I was super disappointed about that.

Yesterday I was telling my therapist about how I feel like I'm covered in itching powder when I'm surrounded by people who subscribe to Christian culture (which I was all last week, for the family reunion) because I feel Christian culture is judgmental. I was telling therapist about how someone there said to me "Did you know so-and-so has an addiction to pornography?" and "Did you know so-and-so had a drug and alcohol problem?" but the truth is, we all have addictions and idols. The self-righteous people included. GOSH! (said like Napoleon Dynamite) Jesus, save me from your followers, and also from myself.

Then randomly, Shane emailed me this yesterday.

Do you remember this t-shirt from back in the day? It said "Christians aren't perfect, just forgiven.� I think that's the truth, and I think that's what contemporary Christianity misses. The attitude of Christian culture is separatist, it has a position of superiority, it is exclusionary and it is above all else judgemental. Once upon a time I thought that it was just because of the Catholic church that I was involved with. But after I left the church I learned that it was all Christianity, and most likely ALL religions period. And that makes me feel cranky.